man life is crazy.
Today i sat at the service of hope which pregnancy support services puts on every mothers day weekend for family that have lost a baby early due to abortion, misscariage, early infant death or still birth. Its a time to come mourn the loss of your baby but also get hope from our Lord Jesus Christ. I sat there and cried and cried.
The first song we sang was desert song. Now that song has had a HUGE impact on my life in the last 3 years. And those lyris were SO beautiful for this service.
This is my prayer in the desertWhen all that's within me feels dryThis is my prayer in my hunger and needMy God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fireIn weakness or trial or painThere is a faith provedOf more worth than goldSo refine me Lord through the flame
I will bring praiseI will bring praiseNo weapon formed against me shall remainI will rejoiceI will declareGod is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the battle. When triumph is still on its wayI am a conqueror and co-heir with ChristSo firm on His promise I'll stand
All of my lifeIn every seasonYou are still GodI have a reason to singI have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvestWhen favor and providence flowI know I'm filled to be emptied againThe seed I've received I will sow
I LOVE the proclation that GOD is the victor. God has won! In this battle we wage in, I have a reason to sing and to worship. I have healing in Jesus christ. I have redemption in the Lord Jesus. I have a life!
I love *pausing* and remeber, my God is GOOD. No matter what. My God is in control. My God is a healer and can heal any sin that we (I or you) commit.
Toward the end of the service you can go up front light a candle for the baby you lost, and get a rose. I lit a candel in honour of all the woman i have met with who have had an abortion, and a candle in honor of my neice, and a friend's baby. After all the woman went up, Our directors lite the candles for all the babies we have lost at PSSWF. I cried and cried as I watched that. It was so good for me to mourn that. So often I get lost in the work and dont stop to mourn. With every candle that was lit there is a broken heart that needs healing, healing that can ONLY come from God. The devil will try and use this babys life and death for his victory, but tonight at PSSWF we claimed God's promises of these children and their mothers!
I am so thankful. I sat in that church think, my work her is not done. I know that God has called me to this work and I am sooo grateful to be able to work in the work i do. I get to do my dream job:) Wow, that is so awesome.
So yah, I am still scared to death of my future. My flesh can be so strong. My fears,However, I am at peace with truting God with every step. My God is so trustworth, and he has called me and I will go.
"If you say go, I will go, if you say wait,I will wait. If you say step out of on the water, and they say it cant be done, we'll fix our eyes on you and we will go."
That is my heart.
Here are some verses that I was reminded about this week.
Isaiah 43
Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. 2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. 3 For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; I give Egypt for your ransom, Cush[a] and Seba in your stead. 4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give people in exchange for you, nations in exchange for your life. 5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west. 6 I will say to the north, ‘Give them up!’ and to the south, ‘Do not hold them back.’ Bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the ends of the earth— 7 everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.”
8 Lead out those who have eyes but are blind, who have ears but are deaf. 9 All the nations gather together and the peoples assemble. Which of their gods foretold this and proclaimed to us the former things? Let them bring in their witnesses to prove they were right, so that others may hear and say, “It is true.” 10 “You are my witnesses,” declares the LORD, “and my servant whom I have chosen, so that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he. Before me no god was formed, nor will there be one after me. 11 I, even I, am the LORD, and apart from me there is no savior. 12 I have revealed and saved and proclaimed— I, and not some foreign god among you. You are my witnesses,” declares the LORD, “that I am God. 13 Yes, and from ancient days I am he. No one can deliver out of my hand. When I act, who can reverse it?”
More riches continue....but wow. what promises.
And then my life verse:
Hebrews 11:8 "By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9 By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10 For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God."
My home is heaven...not here. I so often forget that.
Agreed!
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